No matter how many time you lay awake at night staring at your ceiling, no matter how many times you flirt with a girl or get awkward and nervous around her,
No matter how many times you tell yourself,
And you probably never will be. She was your first love, she was the one you were going to marry. She was such an integral part of your life for 8 months, that of course you still think of her.
You want to hate her.
I mean she cheated on you right?
You want to be upset, to not like her, to just erase all thoughts of her from your head.
But you can't can you?
Even now, months after she broke up with you, admitted she cheated on you, after you even told yourself that you had moved on, you still think of her. She still peaks in your head, and your biggest fear (after Zombies), no matter how irrational it is, is that shes going to show up at school no matter how unlikely.
Its hard getting over her, isn't it?
A small part of your heart still wants her, still ye